Showing posts from November, 2019

Reclaiming my Identity

Motherhood can be isolating, lonely, and thankless. Beyond PPD and the constant anxiety, there are many incredibly challenging phases of motherhood. Many days, I’m merely surviving raising teens and not even close to thriving. My own mother had hobbies, activities, and friends. I threw myself into motherhood and completely lost my identity as a human being. Eleven years after I became a mom, my marriage crumbled under the weight of complex emotions, lies, and disconnection.  I gained the courage to date and it consumed every ounce of my emotional energy to sit across from a stranger in a restaurant. My date asked me what I enjoyed doing for fun. I honestly had no idea. I discussed activities I did with my three children, but couldn’t think of a single thing I enjoyed doing on my own. I thought back to my marriage before children and I remembered I played tennis, took pottery and painting classes, went to Zumba sessions, museums, educational lectures, and I wrote. I spent hours coo